Social Security

I am pissed that I got denied once again. They are trying to say that I can still work in a non strenuous and low stress job. Hmmm Now I can tell you that if my pain levels were down by a factor of 5, I might be able to do it. Unfortunately I don't see that happening any time soon. It is bad enough that the first time they denied me they had one of my surgery dates wrong on the paper that they sent to tell me that they denied me. So when I asked about it I got told that it was just a typo and I shouldn't worry about it. Now I have had 3 back surgeries and they were in '98, '02, and '06. They had '88, '02, and '06. To me that is a huge difference. I plan on appealing the decision again.

I mean if I did try to go back to work, I would really love to actually, my job search would be very, very specific. There would be very few of these jobs available. Then it would come down to whether I was qualified or not. I would need skills that I don't have. I hate it because I miss work. I hate the fact that I am disabled. I walk with a cane because I have weakness in my legs and I fear that I will fall down and get hurt worse or end up not being able to move. I have been laid up in bed and not being able to move hardly because of the pain. Having to crawl to the bathroom and hope that I can get up to go. I would never wish this upon my worst enemy because I would feel like I was just being too cruel. I almost would rather have no feeling at all. So at least I wouldn't feel all of this pain all the time.

What it wrong with our government?? I mean I have a lot of documentation showing whats wrong and that it would be far too difficult to find work. If I was trying to commit fraud I would have already been approved. It always seems that those who are scamming the government always get the money. I have fought with this injury for 10 1/2 years. Believe me it has been one long ass road. I don't want to have to get a lawyer. I don't want them taking a 1/3 of what I get. It is money that I need to pay bills that are so far behind. I think the damn politicians need to start giving the poor people on disabilities some of there money.